2019-02-10
It’s crazy how I think I won’t see better
But every day it’s all I do
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That’s what causes problems
While growing up we’re forced into masks and facades, to hide ourselves behind
And we without a doubt believe this is how and who we are to be
Who we should be, as if life commands it to be the most suitable
If we were otherwise our being would be erroneous and wrong
Of course based on the experience we faced
Without realizing that experience isn’t all
But to us it is
We’re literally shaped into a person by what we face
If those experiences naturally don’t grow your truth, they instead grow a hidden you
It’s not all constant, some grow you others hide you; the totalled ratio of them holds the strength of your mask
All of our problems arise from the differences of who we truly are and the person who we play to be
The further away we stand, the greater the distance between us and the reality we play, the greater the painful discomfort
We need to come front and live our experiences instead of shielding them with away who we are not
Don’t let your experiences deny you into a pathetic facade who matches said ratio of experiences
Live your experience to the fullest
Not letting it define you
But instead raise you
Into more of you
Not less
Because once you accept yourself as defined by experiences, you begin looking at future experiences based on the mold of those previous
Like you’ve been trained on what to expect, what to perceive
And you look at the present and future to be the same as the past
Instead of experiencing the experience wholly, you deny it fully and replace it with a similar past
And by doing so you make the present feel like the past, even if it isn’t but by ways of self delusion it is; you are the master of your own perception; the way you see things will always be the way you wish to see them; truly or falsely
But if you begin to realize the training of the ratios and ignore the forced upon molds, and instead let every experience independently, without a relation, exclusively define you, then you’re golden
Because you still need experiences to define you, it’s the only way we know of ourselves, by reflective experience within our surroundings
But it is when we let past experiences define us more heavily and wholly than present and the possible future that we break ourselves
Sure the past has value, but only to learn from and grow from
As goes for all experiences
Experience it, and then live the fuck on
Don’t devalue a present or future experience because of how a cousin experience felt in the past
Experience and experience to the fullest capable of you
And then welcome the next one with open arms, without ever looking back
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Life makes you believe, “This is how I should be, to fit in and live”
And depending on the life you experience, it’s either a branch near you, or one far away and twisted
The pain and discomfort you feel is a sibling of the distance
It’s up to you to realize there’s no need to travel so far
All you need is right here
Within you
Plant your own tree with branches flowing all over
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Become who you are
That’s where true freedom lives
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As we grow we become this person who we believe we should be
Based on life’s experiences and any other impactful force
How distant this person is from ourselves is how painful and discomforting we feel life to be
Drop this person and replace them with you in all your soulful beauty
Most probably don’t even know they have a real self within
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Instead of distorting our experiences to fit the picture we have, let our experiences paint the picture
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It’s living how you are
Instead of how you, through others perception, believe you should be
Be who you are
Open to experience
Acceptance of intuition and feelings
Acknowledging they can be wrong yet still satisfactory to follow
Know all judgements and decisions ultimately live within
Only you have the final say on what should dictate your life
The value anything has
The locus of evaluation should be no where but within
That you are a process of growing, flowing down a stream of random experiences that is life
Never build a mold of expectations based on past experiences and distort the future in order to fit that mold
Love each experience as it’s own
Conjoin with your animalistic subconscious and body
You are the consciousness of not only the ego, but also of the animal with instincts, feelings, and heart
Accept all as is
Rejection has no power to change it